When the Honeymoon Phase Fades to Black

Happy November everybody! I trust that this month has been a blessed month for all of you thus far. As for me, it’s definitely been a beautiful one. It’s a month filled with new adventures, new steps taken within my ventures, and multiple messages from my maker. But the message he’s brought to me for this month’s blog post is regarding the oh so infamous “Honeymoon Phase” or season many of us experience in different ways. When we hear this phrase, we often think about the point in relationships when the blissful days turn into something unfamiliar. We think of the point when reality hits that “OMG! I didn’t realize this about you before!” or “I didn’t feel this way before, what’s wrong with me? He’s/ she’s perfect, but something’s nagging at me…” And we ask ourselves if this is something/someone we can see being a permanent component in our lives. But what’s also true is the honeymoon phase is not only a season that comes and goes in male-female or same sex relationships. And please note that the words “same sex relationships” was NOT a typo. The truth is we’re not all living the way we were created to live as companions, but to stay on topic, I most definitely digress. Getting back onto the honeymoon phase, we experience this in our careers, in our friendships, and even in our spiritual walk. And so this will be the topic of discussion for this month’s post.

How many of us have been in relationships that seem so perfect in the beginning? Sometimes the beginning may last a month, 2 months, 4 months, and so forth. But you better believe at some point the beginning has its end. You find out things about this person that were either deliberately left unsaid, left to assume, or left to come out as time progressed. Then when these things are revealed, you think to yourself, “If I’d known this in the beginning, I would’ve been ghost! But I’m already attached so now we have to deal. I need to reevaluate and settle on an approach. Do we stay and work this out, or do we part ways, which will be a process.” Or it may be your mate who’s thinking these things about you! Yes I just said that because the fact is, not everyone reading this is the perfect one in the relationship. As the writer, I will honestly say I’ve been in situations where I’m the one with the delayed baggage being unloaded. The reality is that there IS no perfect one in the relationship. However, through Christ and through commitment, we’re able to build a love that makes us perfect for one another as we complement each other in our lives. As we bring each other balance and so many other things God knows we need, and therefore provides in the form of our companionship.

Now onto another type of honeymoon phase we experience. How many of us have felt we were called to pursue a specific career or be a part of a specific ministry as it appeared to be in line with the many talents and passions God had placed within us? Maybe you felt called to work with children, but never realized there would be sacrifices & contributions you’re called to make for their benefit. You may be asked to make monetary contributions and think, “Nobody told me I’d have to pay for meals when I was hired/ appointed!” or “I’m supposed to be reimbursed but they’re taking FOREVER to pay me back. I need my money!” And YES I just said that! Some may find that mindset selfish, and some may find it understandable being that we all have bills and expenses. And we often get paid less than we may need to survive for working in fields that are more of a work of “heart” than a work of art. Maybe you never realized you may have incidents where you could’ve handled things in a more efficient way. Maybe something happens to upset a parent, an incident causes endangerment to a child, or you just experience levels of stress you never expected you’d have to face. Then you ask yourself, “is this really where I belong? Is this really where I wanna be? Was that initial bliss and feeling of belonging all just a part of a honeymoon phase in my career or ministry?” If you’ve ever felt like this, please know you’re not alone. Speaking personally, I will admit I’ve been there to the point that I experienced a feeling of utter displacement and what could have become depression if I weren’t so firmly rooted in my walk. Sometimes we have to take a step back and reassess the situation. We have to seek God in what’s really good as our season in whatever place may be over. As the honeymoon phase fades to black, God may just be telling us, “this was for a season and now it’s time for me to show you what’s next.”

And for my final thoughts on the honeymoon phase, I’ll get to that blissful phase of Christianity. I’m talking about that point when this whole thing is new to you and you expect everything to be all good once you turn your life over to Christ. Then you make that big move and discover there are even more challenges than you felt you had as an unsaved person. You may fall in ways you never even fell when you were unsaved! The enemy asks you questions to raise doubt and have you question your ability to serve God fully. He asks “Can you really hang through all of this? If you lose your wife/husband, your job, your family members, your home, your freedom (imprisonment)… if you start failing all of your classes, if you feel forced to drop out of school, can you hang?” or “if you fall and I give you a premature pregnancy, an std, a mate who was sweet in the beginning, but turns out to be verbally/physically/financially abusive, are you still gonna trust that God is leading you to a life that’s all good?” These are real situations many of us go through, even those of us who are in the CHURCH! But we don’t talk about it. Sometimes we can’t talk to anyone BUT God, and that’s actually what makes it so evident that we need him! Through the growing pains that come after the honeymoon phase, we’re brought to deeper levels in our relationship with Christ, but only so long as we stick it out through this walk we were called & chosen to take[Matthew 22:14; Romans 8:28]. Only as long as we don’t give up. And often in relationships, careers, and areas of ministry, that’s also the case.

But you know what’s SOOO beautiful about our God? For him there is no honeymoon phase! And for Jesus, he turned away from that phase the moment he chose to live and die as a sacrifice. He knows our pain, our weaknesses, and our hearts. He knows we’re all far from perfect, and still he loves us. He loves us as if the honeymoon phase were permanent in his relationship with us! For whoever’s going through a feeling of displacement, guilt, or loss in an end to any kind of honeymoon phase, know that God is still with you. He allows certain things in his permissive will, but trust that through him, your latter will be greater [Haggai 2:9]. Allow him to speak to you on what to do next. Or if he doesn’t speak, maybe he’ll show you something; a door, an opportunity, a chance at hope where it seems there is none. But be still and be faithful. Through your patience you’ll be delivered. Trust this to be true as I can say I’ve experienced it in all aspects. I’ve experienced it in relationships, in career paths and ministries, and of course in my spiritual walk. And I have to say that God hasn’t failed me yet, and he hasn’t failed you either. We only fail ourselves, and even then he’s still there. Reach out and be still as we pray for one another. I trust God’s love is something we all have on our list of things to give thanks for on the upcoming holiday, and on everyday at that. I hope this is of encouragement to someone out there as it has been laid upon my heart. Happy Thanksgiving in advance. Your sis in Christ for life…

KLC

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke

More to Me Than Meets the Eye

Hey y’all! If anyone’s down for talking about something other than Whitney, Kanye, or “Good Hair,” can I get a “WORD!?!” If you’re all hungry for the word and saying your prayers, how about a “NO DOUBT!?!” And lastly, if you know there’s more to our God than meets the physical eye, lemme get an “AMEN!!!”

Now that we’ve gotten that out of our systems, let’s get into the topic at hand. But just before we do, I’d like to touch on my previous post. I’m sure those of you who’ve read it may have left with a variety of thoughts. Some may have been thinking “There are parts I don’t understand, but this is really pretty.” Others may have been thinking, “Okay it’s a wrap! This lady is in LOVE!” Then there was at least one person who got the total purpose of it and said, “I needed this.” And just as there’s more to you and I than meets the eye, there was more to my reason for posting that piece than some may think. It was symbolic of my love for someone special, and of the fact that there’s more to me in my writing than scriptural encouragements. There’s the side of me that’s a woman, a human being, and a giver and receiver of love. And just as there are many sides to us as human beings, there’s more to the love God plans to give to and through us than meets even our own eyes. While expanding on and explaining how that love is personal for me, I’m sure at least one of you will be ministered to concerning your own relationship with Christ and his ability to love through you.

If any of you are artists or writers, I’m sure you will agree that our thoughts and feeling are often abstract. Our views can be very complex or “outside the box,” to the extreme that we may be misinterpreted. Many times we feel misunderstood, and in certain cases, some of us may even be labeled crazy! In my post entitled “The Moses Experience,” I spoke on two biblical figures whom God used in a way that may have seemed crazy. And in “Us,” I wrote of a love that may have only been partially understood, just as those used by God in the bible may not have been completely understood. So in this post, I’ll break things down in a way that can be better understood. As some of you know, I recently celebrated my 29th birthday. But what you may not know, or may have forgotten, is what I wrote about around this time last year. I wrote about something many folks in my age group struggle with. And that is a lack of faith that God will someday provide a companion especially designed for each of us; that he has our best interest at heart. In the meantime, he’s allowing us to grow… with occasional growing pains, while we become the best as his servants. And through this process, we’re also growing into the man or woman of God created to be a companion for someone special.

Many days, firmly believing the above statements are true can be a task to say the least. For many of us, we’ve been through so much! We’ve lost count of the amount of times we’ve been hurt or we’ve hurt others. We start to give up and often believe we’re damaged goods. But trust me when I say God has a LOT of love to give to and THROUGH you in the form of heterospiritual companionship. Yes that’s right. Another made up word presented as God speaks into my heart. And as usual, I’m going to follow my statements with a personal testimony.

Some of you are aware, whether through direct conversation or general observation, that I’ve been getting to know someone pretty special; someone who shares many of my interests and passions, as well as my love for God. And in becoming better acquainted, we’ve grown to care about one another a great deal. God has enabled us to develop a deep friendship with a love so great, it’s often difficult to label. And in turn, it’s often been misunderstood by others. Friends have questions like, “So are you guys official yet?” or have jokingly asked, “Are y’all still frontin’ like you’re not in love?” But you know what? Just as we have more to learn about God and his purpose for our individual lives… we have more to learn about one another and his total purpose for what we’ve established in our friendship. And as we learn and grow together, one thing God has revealed to me is that we’re not damaged goods.

There have been points in my life when I thought as a woman, I’d become irrevocably tainted and bruised by a world of mixed messages and a history of unhealthy relationships. So much so that it would be impossible for me to love the way God intended me to love. I often believed that I had become damaged goods. But through a new friendship, I’ve been reminded and reassured that God has so much he wants to give to and through me within a special kind of love. I’ve been told by my father that I’m the good thing he created me to be, and that restores my faith that in his time, I will be found by the man he’s been preparing for me [Prov 18:22]. And I want to say to you and to whoever that man may be, you are not damaged goods either! Many of us trust God to “create” in us “a clean heart”, and “renew a right spirit” within us [Psalms 51:10]. Even when we have wavering faith, our word reassures us that our requests for renewal will be granted. And in reading this, I see a whole new meaning. Cleansing of the heart means more than ridding us of guilt and sinful desires for our own sakes. It also means healing of the cuts and bruises we’ve received through growing pains. In other words, through Christ, our hearts can always be restored and repaired.

The sinful nature we’ve adapted through unhealthy relationships and encounters can be washed away. Whether it be rape, molestation, physical, verbal, or emotional abuse… being cheated on, having or ending strained relationships; God has the ability to heal and cleanse our hearts. But more than that, he has so much love to give through our healed or cleansed hearts! And I can say this because I’m a living testimony as I type. Not only am I a living testimony, but “Us” was a testimony for me, inspired by a love I can only thank God for. Trust God and seek him in providing a love just as great, if not greater for all of us as we seek him in being better servants. In his word this was his instruction for all of us. “Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband.” [Eph 5:33]. He doesn’t just say some of us, but all of us; “every one” of us who desire that kind of companionship. And my testimony is only confirmation that he has a desire to love EACH and EVERY one of us through healthy, loving relationships. There were days when I thought it was too late for me. But as you can see, it’s not too late for me, and it’s not too late for any of you. I don’t care if you’re 30, 40, 50… whatever! God has more to do through you and your heart. Love in faith as you live in faith and just see what God does. This is my word for today as I pray it’s been a blessing to someone out there. Now if you believe there’s more to you and your heart than meets they even your own eyes, let me get a final “AMEN!” Love you ALL, your sis in Christ for life…

KLC

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarkes

Us

My love overflows and spills onto this page,
seeping from my pen…
until you bandage me with kisses.

This distance leaves me leaking,
dripping metaphors unheard and syllables unspoken
until you bandage me with kisses.

Ointment in your love notes;
your phonecalls numb the pain.
They’ll have to do for now,
until you bandage me with kisses.

I bleed on canvas and capture your beauty
in countless shades of bright;
love’s scale depicts all hues; koleidescopes of light
and morphs into your child,
then morphs into your smile,
so you can bandage me with kisses.

This is…
this is…

This is water for our seeds,
soil for our new earth.
This is life…
within our kisses.

This is shade on a private beach;
hope when there’s no belief.
This is faith that’s beyond our kisses.

This is fate and we can’t escape it,
no matter how hard we try.
So afraid but we can’t deny.
This is more than hugs and kisses.

This is love…
This is us.

And if you still don’t get it,
I love you.
So… much.

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke
© 2000-2009 GS Poetry. All rights reserved

- Until we become one, dedicated to the man I trust God has for me to love, and who will love me in return.

“22 Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.

23 For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body.

24 Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.

25 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

26 That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word,

27 That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.

28 So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself.

29 For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church:

30 For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones.

31 For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh.

32 This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church.

33 Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband.”
~ Eph 5:22-33, KJV

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke

The Moses Experience

“EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE A MOSES EXPERIENCE. GO UP INTO THE MOUNTAINS WITH NO RADIO OR TELEVISION FOR AT LEAST A WEEK, AND ASK GOD TO SHOW YOU HIS GLORY, AND SPEAK TO YOUR HEART, AND MAKE CLEAR HIS PURPOSE AND WILL FOR YOUR LIFE. OMG…!!!!” -Julian Scott Varner

What’s good people? Hopefully a lot! As you can probably tell from the quote above, I’m gonna talk about the “Moses experience” and how important it is for us to have those intimate moments with God. For some of us, we spend years trying to figure out what our purpose is. We have our own passions and interests, we have people who envision us doing this or that, and then we have GOD’s will for our lives. Some of us have been told we look like teachers, doctors/nurses, athletes, etc. And many of us have our personal interests, goals, or desires. Some wish to become artists, actors/actresses, models, entertainers, and the list goes on. Then there’s the universal need to feel we know our God-given purpose. Many of us spend so much time out of our lives wondering what our individual purpose or calling might be; to the point that we seek God constantly for the answer. And as much as many of us need alone time just to relax, maybe watch a little tv or skim through a magazine, we need one on one time with God even more. I myself can say that I spend a lot of alone time reflecting, thinking… and just being still so that God can reveal to me what moves to make and not make in accordance to his will for my life. And recently, I’ve been spending a great deal of alone time reflecting and just talking to God. To the point that some have probably taken my distance personally or wondered what’s going on with me. But no worries folks! I’ve been going through my Moses experience, and I’m still going through it. I’m not literally cutting off the radio and television for weeks at a time, or ignoring phone calls from everyone while focusing on this experience. But I have been taking more time to get into the word in a way that’s personal for me and God’s plans for my life. For those who have reached out to me in an attempt to discuss the word collectively, you have my apologies for any unexplained distance. Truth be told, I was still figuring out the reasons myself. At times I was actually unavailable, which is when my exclusion was explained. But I know there were many days when it wasn’t. Some might think it’s the devil causing me to go into introvert mode, or it’s me just making excuses and closing myself off because I’m going through things. At times I do keep to myself while coping with personal issues. But please realize that some people function this way. We can’t all fake it til we make it or put on a happy face and join the party. Sometimes we have to have our personal time with God. And in the meantime we may ask for prayer from those we believe are a source of spiritual support.

For those I’ve reached out to for prayer, consolation, or input, please know that it’s an indication that I hold you in high esteem as members of my spiritual family. Over time, who I’ve approached for what, and how many I approach has changed to the point that some may be perplexed by the changes… or unsure of how to approach me in return. And to those who’ve come to feel this way, or have always felt this way, I do apologize. I’m far from “normal” according to common standards, and may not always express things in the ways you’re accustomed to, but know you all mean a lot to me for different reasons. And for those who’ve reached out to me, whether it be for an empathetic ear, a few words of wisdom, or for prayer as well… I hope God has guided and continues to guide me in being what you need. But in the times when man alone has no way of supplying our needs, I pray you’re able to have your own Moses experience. In the moments when God has a great calling he needs to speak to us about, I pray we all take the time to listen. Lately, that’s what I’ve been trying to do on so many levels. And when you do, you’ll understand why it’s so important to have at least one Moses experience in your lifetime. We never know when we’re gonna be called to the mountaintop, and consequently won’t always know how to relay what is happening to our loved ones… but go in faith that the end will always justify the means. And when I think about all of this, I also think about Noah…

Before there was Moses, there was Noah. He too was called to do something great. But unlike Moses, Noah was busy building during the time when God called him away from his people. And as he responded to God’s call, how do you think he felt? Just imagine living in the Middle East, which was nowhere near the coast, when suddenly God tells you to build a boat when you’re surrounded by land! I don’t know about you, but if I were in Noah’s shoes, I’d be a little confused. To top it all off, he’s prophesying about a flood! The people around him had to be thinking he was crazy!

Sometimes God has us going through things with a purpose that isn’t clear, and those around us just don’t get it. And we can’t even explain it because we’re still learning things ourselves! But according to the word, our God states that “as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” [Isaiah 55:9]. This means we won’t always understand the reason for certain circumstances in our lives right away. Sometimes we never understand, but those who come after us will see the fruits of our labor. And in those cases, it’s difficult to explain things to others. But stand firm as you surrender to your calling. Trust that all things will work together for good in the end [Romans 8:28]. For me personally, I’m seeing this happen through the messages God lays upon my heart, and in how it touches many of you as readers. And if this can be the case for me, it most certainly can be the case for you. Stand firm in your experiences and just watch and see what God does through you. This is my word for today. Stay tuned, stay faithful, & stay blessed…

KLC

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke

The Age of Purpose

Morning, afternoon, or evening readers! Did you miss me? Well even if you didn’t, I missed all of you! And as many of you know, it’s been about 2 weeks since my last post. This means I’ve had a lot of time to sit and let God do what he does with my thoughts. And as he’s been working, he’s inspired me to write something for my spiritual peers (as opposed to literal/physical peers). I say this because my thoughts have been on the fact that I’m nearly 30 (next year…can’t believe it), and am NOW seeing passions and talents I’ve had since childhood being developed or put to use. I’m now seeing how they possibly fall in line with my purpose. And when I say these things are being developed, I don’t mean through classes, workshops, or any other form of training. I simply mean through self-discipline, decisions and blueprints for my goals, not to mention God having me encounter a few individuals who share the same passions. And in conversation with a dear friend, who ironically happens to be my beautician and employer, I was reminded that walking into your purpose at this age is actually nothing to feel strange about. I’m not saying I feel strange. I actually feel very much at peace and quite frankly, humbled. I’ve come to realize that the years approaching and recently going beyond 30 are the years when many of us just start to find ourselves completely. This may seem like something new, but it really isn’t. My friend Nellie reminded me that even Jesus himself was said to be 30 years old when he fully walked into his purpose, as it was revealed to him by the Lord [Luke 3:22-23]. Now how crazy is that?

I know many of us are going through a lot in our careers lately. So much so, that I’ve been led to write on this particular subject several times. Some of us are being laid off. Others are resigning. And then there is the population who dreads going to work everyday, but feels they have to stick things out where they are. We say to ourselves, “I have to pay the bills,” “I won’t be able to find anything else during this recession,” and lastly, “well I do have to thank God I even have a job.” If any of you feel you fit into at least one of these categories, this message is for you. Many of us have even attempted to pursue careers in fields we felt certain were in line with our calling. Yet somewhere down the line, we realized “this really isn’t for me,” “this isn’t where I belong,” or “this was only for a season.” So then we’re left with the number 1 question, “now what Lord? I’m lost!” At this moment, we have a hard time seeing a blessing within our circumstance. Yet in being lost, we’re led to seek God on a whole new level, which is a blessing like no other. We’re led to allow him to lead us through what comes naturally along with what we’ve probably always had a desire to do, but been apprehensive about pursuing. I’m going to share a story with all of you about my own struggle. Now if you ever grow tired of hearing my testimonies, all you have to do is stop reading my posts. However, if you feel a testimony is just what Dr. Jesus prescribed, or you simply enjoy learning more about me, you’ve come to the right place.

As a child, my parents could always entertain me with any of the following:
1) A pen/pencil and paper (crayons/ markers optional).
2) TV shows and movies
3) Audio cassettes or the radio (to all of my young readers, yes this was before CD’s & MP3’s).

Number one was great because I loved to draw, and often made up stories that I sometimes accompanied with illustrations. The next one was great because I loved to be entertained and visual forms of entertainment kept me engaged. And lastly, music was great because to me, it always told a story and painted a picture as well. Oftentimes, it painted a picture with words I could relate to, but was unable to put together on my own. Eventually, I realized I could actually hold a note, and grew to enjoy singing in small groups or choirs. And with all of these things to help me pass the time, there was a part of me that always dreamed of sharing different sides to my personality and telling my own stories in different ways. I saw fashion as one way being that I was an artistic child. Through fashion illustrations, I could create designs I may not have had the courage, confidence, or freedom to wear. And eventually, I realized art was even an escape for me. If I had problems I didn’t want to think about, I could focus all of my energy on my art. This worked wonders for me when I was in college (a time when I went through more than I ever knew I would). Then there was writing, which also became useful in my college years. Although I never imagined it would be something I’d later have a passion or special talent in, it was something I loved to do even as a child. It was my way of creating a story I sometimes wished was my own. I often wrote about twins because a part of me wished I had a friend who would never leave and who truly understood me. Eventually writing became more than a way for me to dream. It became my outlet and in a sense, God’s way of being that friend. Through writing, he allowed me to cope and to reflect. He allowed me find a freedom I’d never known before. Through writing, I was able to vent when no one was available to be my ear. I could speak freely without judgment or questions. I could pray and I could write, with the assurance that either way, God was listening and that he understood. And lastly, there was music.

Music provided anthems or soundtracks to my situations when I was lost for words. And as odd as it may sound, at times it gave me the same consolation I received from reading. I loved and still enjoy reading biographies because you learn how similar people are to you, and that you’re not alone. In music, I often learned the same. I would hear songs that spoke of my situations or similar emotions, and I’d either be encouraged of comforted… occasionally both. And then there’s the kind of music that gives you hope when you’re down. The kind that tells you “Everything’s Gonna Be Alright” (Bob Marley), or that your name is “Victory” (Jonathan Nelson); Songs that remind you that you can trust in God, even when it’s not easy (James Fortune), and the list goes on and on. I’d listen to songs like these thinking, “I wanna make people feel the way this makes me feel, but I don’t know how I’m gonna do it. I mean… I love to draw, I love to write, I love to sing… but I’m not good enough to use THOSE things to make a difference.” I was even prophesied to as a child about God’s plan to have me “sew seeds,” yet I thought, “no way! If he means I’ll be teaching, nobody’s gonna listen to what I have to say! I look like a kid, and I’m quiet. And if he means through my art or writing… I can’t even think about that, scratch that!” This was my thought process. Yet years later, I did find myself teaching. And today, I find myself writing and doing so many other things. Only God knows where my new pastimes will take me, but I’m enjoying the ride while finding out. And to anyone out there who’s afraid your passions are in areas God can’t use you in, you’re WRONG!

The word of God tells us, “Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.” [1 John 4:4]. Our father tells us that He is our light and our strength, and that with him on our side, we have no one and nothing to fear, not even failure [Psalms 27:1]. He instructs us to wait on him and to be courageous. While doing so, he promises to give us all the strength and guidance we need [Psalms 27:14]. I see these promises revealed as I seek God in my walk, and so will you. All you have to do is trust God as you allow him to fulfill his will while granting you the desires of your heart [Psalms 37:4; Proverbs 13:12; Proverbs 3:5]. So many scriptures speak to us of a promise concerning our desires if we simply trust God. And so, I encourage all of you who need this message, to stand firm in your faith and know that God is doing a new thing in your life as you read. My prayers are with you as I type it into existence. I pray and type in faith that as you submit your lives and your hearts to God, he will work wonders through your gifts. God bless as always, and keep me in your prayers as well. If you’ve already been doing so, you have my gratitude along with my love. Until the next post…

KLC

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke

A Word for the Chosen

Boy it feels like I haven’t written in a minute! And it’s only been about a week and a ½ right? Well hopefully this message has been highly anticipated and as the last late post was, worth the wait. But before I start, be aware that all other posts after this will be biweekly, if not even less frequent. This blog thing is still kinda new for me, so I tried posting weekly to see if I could hang… but you can’t time God’s word. He brings it to you in HIS time, amen? So far, I’ve been doing pretty well, but I’m noticing that I don’t always have a weekly word. And I say that to say this. Have faith that God’s time is the right time, and that His way is the right way.

In a time of conversation and personal reflection, God brought me to the issue of acceptance. More specifically, the issue of acceptance from our loved ones. And along with that, I also thought about understanding and patience. A lot of times when we’re unaccepted, it’s because people don’t really understand us. During these times, patience is tested on both sides of the fence. For the misunderstood, we’re continuously asking God, “when are they gonna love me for me?” or “when is it gonna be ok to be who I am… to follow my heart?” And for those who need help understanding, the question may be, “when are they going to give up on what they’re doing, thinking, feeling… and become ‘normal?’”

Now on both sides, these questions actually come from a place of love. Our loved ones want us to be ‘normal’ because it’s safe. They want to be sure we’re going to be ok, professionally, financially, and in any other way in which being “normal” basically guarantees we’ll be “ok”. And for those of us who are the black sheep, oddballs, or glitches in the genetic matrix, our questions stem from the desire for acceptance and wanting our loved ones to be pleased. We want our parents, spouses, etc., to be happy. I know for me personally, I’ve fought against my “non- nine-to-five” nature from the moment I knew my family would prefer I do something more common than designing, writing, or anything else artistic. But let’s be real. How many ministries do you know of that are non-artistic aside from positions such as treasurers, deacons, ushers, etc. Imagine how boring church would be if those were the only ministries we had. And if those chosen to minister in artistic ways have been gifted in singing, dancing, playing, writing, drawing… wouldn’t it make sense that professionally speaking, their hearts lie in the same or similar areas? Church wasn’t meant to be bland and boring, and our lives outside of those four walls weren’t meant to be either.

Now don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying that if you’re led to sing or dance in church, that’s all you should do for a living. In many cases, that may be considered unwise. However, we’re not limited to desk jobs or medical and legal positions. It’s possible to go the safe route by day, while going against the grain by night (figuratively speaking). But unfortunately, many of us have not been taught this. We’ve been indeliberately stunted in our natural growth. To the loved ones out there, I want you to know it’s not your fault. You’re teaching what you’ve been taught, so I understand it’s a matter of making sure we’re ok. But you have to realize that for us, it can lead to so many feelings and issues that are not ok. It can lead to low self-esteem, feeling we have no purpose, or the belief that we’re a straight up mistake! This in turn, can lead to shakiness in our faith. Any form of doubt when it comes to our image, whether physically or spiritually, is an attack of the enemy. The enemy will use doubt to have you question your children’s, spouse’s, maybe even your sibling’s nature. And in turn, this leads to that person’s self-doubt, and questioning God as to why they were created the way they were.

Genesis 1:27 reads as follows:

“So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.”

While Matthew 5:13 says this:

“Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.”

Now when I read these two verses, I see that although they are in separate sections of the bible, they complement one another. We were created in God’s image… to be the “salt,” or flavor, seasoning, preservatives of the earth. When I read this, it tells me that God made us different on PURPOSE! And if that’s the case, the enemy must have a problem with us wanting to live in accordance to our purpose of being different. Different is always going to be difficult because anytime you choose to follow Christ, you choose to be challenged. And sometimes our loved ones need to be challenged through our challenges. Sometimes they need to have their mindsets encounter conflict in order to see things from a different perspective. And as we seek God in being accepted while we are actually being used through our struggle. It’s so hard to look at it this way when you’re the one struggling. But as I write, it’s all starting to make sense.

Psalms 8:2 states that, “Out of the mouth of babes and sucklings hast thou ordained strength because of thine enemies, that thou mightest still the enemy and the avenger.” Now what this says to me, is that those we believe to be younger, whether mentally or physically… are actually chosen to be our leaders in their spiritual strength. In the case of ministry or passions, this strength takes the form of boldness. It is this boldness that will lead to the enemy’s defeat. And because of that, we will be called to do what our physical elders or peers have been taught is unorthodox or risky in the name of our Father. I recently had a conversation with my mother about this. I resigned from my job knowing that I would be leaving to do something part-time, with less pay and no benefits. And you know what she asked me? “Aren’t you afraid? Aren’t you concerned about your bills?” And although I was aware that this move would lead to struggle, I remembered and stated the following verse to my mother: “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” [2 Timothy 1:7].

And in submitting ourselves to this spirit, our patience, and the patience of our loved ones will often be tested. But more importantly, this test leads to an increase in our own faith as well as theirs through God’s work.

If anyone reading this is struggling with feeling unaccepted or boxed in when it comes to your heart’s desires, know I’ve been there… and in some ways I’m still there. But I’m fighting through it as I fight for my savior. I’m seeking God daily for strength and for my life to be a lesson for my loved ones. And you were born to do the same. For those of you who feel you are being called to do what’s unorthodox or unsafe in the eyes of your loved ones, know that I’m praying for you AND for them. I’m praying that God continues to give you the strength needed as you choose to walk the narrow path [Matthew 7:13-14]. And I’m praying that in your walk, your loved ones be transformed by the renewing of their minds [Romans 12:2]. Please continue to walk in faith and trust that what is written shall come to pass. As I make this request, I’ll leave you with 1 Peter 2:9 through 10, which states the following:

“But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvelous light;

Which in time past were not a people, but are now the people of God: which had not obtained mercy, but now have obtained mercy.”

With love until the next time…

KLC

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke

Renewal for the Weary

What’s going on readers? Hopefully all of you are having a blessed week. As for me, I’m cool aside from having a bit of writer’s block. So I decided to simply think out loud and see what comes out. I was off from work today, even had my vocal training session cancelled, and still I’m finding myself at the computer after midnight to do a blog post. In other words, I’ve been in a bit of a funk. And ironically, I’m finding out it’s not just me. Maybe it’s something in the air. But you know what? Most don’t have the luxury of receiving days off during their funky moods. We have to push through those moments and handle our business. Otherwise, work piles up, chores are neglected, and when we get spiritual… our guard is down, which leaves us open for an attack.

How often do we turn to the word on the days we feel lethargic? Or even if we read regardless of our mood, are we cutting our prayers short, or finding ourselves late for ministry meetings and watching the clock during church services? These are all ways in which the enemy may be blocking our blessing in the midst of our funk! And that’s dangerous! I find myself in this place often… to the point that I dose off if I’m physically inactive for too long (pray for me y’all!). And I’ve been battling this spirit of weariness for as long as I can remember. This funk is so extreme that it may even be referred to by us West Indians as “dropsy,” or by the experts as narcolepsy or chronic fatigue. But I know it’s not just me. And just as some of us struggle with a constant physical funk, many of us have periods where we find ourselves in an emotional or spiritual funk. It’s at these times that we’re to dig deep and find strength, energy, whatever it is we need… to carry on as we would any other time.

At times, we even become weary in our faith. We are attacked again and again… and eventually we ask ourselves, “why continue trusting in God, leaning on God, when I’m gonna get knocked down again anyway?” And because we choose to be servants of the Lord, we’re knocked down even more often than not because the enemy is on the prowl. Consequently, we sometimes take a spiritual vacation and decide we’ll get back to praying, praising, and serving once we’ve rebuilt our strength. But what if the Lord approached our lives the way we did? What if he said, “I’m tired today. I don’t feel like performing any miracles or answering any prayers right now. It’s time for a day off or a vacation.” Imagine the results! Some of us would be dead at this very moment! If God said, “I’m tired of pumping blood through my children’s veins. I don’t feel like breathing air into their lungs…” IMAGINE! And I can give plenty of other examples. But we serve a God who never grows tired of loving and caring for His children. However, there are times when we doubt God’s consistency in His love for us. We’ve doubted it for so long, that it’s even been documented in the bible. And in questioning our God, the answer has been this: “Hast thou not known? Hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? There is no searching of his understanding.” [Isaiah 40:28].

In reading this, I was reminded that in times when we have no strength, we can count on the Lord to be our source. We have the freedom to seek Him for our second wind, and when needed, for a dose of adrenaline in times of weariness. For those of you who are in a current funk or season of weariness, I just want you to know that it’s only temporary. I want you to know that I’m praying for you and that our God will answer that prayer sooner than you think. I’m speaking in faith and as one who believes the word to be true. In the word we are told that our God gives “power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.” [Isaiah 40:20]. We are even told that our young people will be weary, and that our young men shall “utterly fall.” [Isaiah 40:21]. How many of us see this happen in our churches from one generation to the next? We see our young people become spiritually weary, whether it’s due to hardship or a failure to maintain their interest. Especially among our young men! But as elders in the spirit, it is our duty to keep the youth in encouragement and in prayer, as I encourage and keep you all in prayer. It is our duty to be their strength in ministry as the Lord becomes their strength in life. Our prayers may not even appear to be answered immediately, but trust that they will definitely be answered.

Isaiah 40:31 says this about us who pray with faith and patience: “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” And if we believe this in unity, we’re on our way. We just need to trust God to do the rest as we trust Him in everything else. We trust Him to keep us into tomorrow, which we aren’t even promised! Yet at times it’s difficult to trust him to deliver us from our weariness. For some, this has been a lifelong struggle. For others it’s been seasonal. But no matter what, it’s a struggle God has already delivered us from. All He asks us to do is wait. So be patient and know that in time, His word will come to pass. This is my encouragement for the week. I hope you’ve all been blessed in your reading. And know that I love you all with the love of the Lord. Your sis in Christ for life…

KLC

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke

Unfrozen by Faith: Letting Down Our Guard

“Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.” [Deuteronomy 7:9]

For those of you who have been anticipating Part II to “Frozen by Fear,” this is it! I know the name has changed, but my message has evolved. I also know that I promised to post something new at least once a week, so I’d like to begin with an apology for missing last week. I’ve been tied up with a few transitions, but I hope what I have to say in this week’s post will leave you believing it was worth the wait. With that said, prepare yourselves for another lesson learned morphed into a message.

In my last post, I dedicated a poem to the late Michael Jackson while acknowledging others who have passed. I stated that these deaths are a reminder for me that no one is promised tomorrow. I also stated that it should be motivation for us to “live life to the fullest by sharing our gifts and leaving our own mark by sewing seeds for our SAVIOR… and also by showing love every chance we get. We owe God that much for each day we’re given, and we need that much from one another.” And in these words, I became inspired. As I’m writing what I feel inspired to say, I’m sharing it in faith that it will be well-received.

I’d like to begin by touching on the death of MJ once again. As I continue to type, I know there’s a great chance that nobody wants to hear what I’m about to say, but I feel someone needs to say it, so here goes…

Although a truly special person has passed, other people have died before & after him recently. People I know are even burying loved ones like crazy and every life has left a mark for those who mourn them. Yet so much focus is on this one man. Was he GREAT? Without QUESTION! But imagine the world if we put so much time into acknowledging each other’s greatness while we were all alive; without favoritism and while acknowledging the SOURCE of that greatness. You can have all the fame and power in the world, yet you still have no control of your future, nor do you choose your gifts. God chooses you, and your gifts choose you too. So at this moment, I’m going to let down my guard while acknowledging the greatness in someone special who’s still alive. I’ve chosen to do this in the form of poetry, and I’m actually completing it as I type this post. I hope you all enjoy (poem below):

“For Jason”

This is a special shout out
to my dude in Manassas.
See, me & him are on that
“Platonic boo” status.
Folks have wondered what we are,
Some have even had to ask us.
And to any throwing shade,
You can kiss my glasses!

See J, that’s my boy!
But are we meant for more?
We’re not even asking,
Cuz God knows what’s in store.
I just thank him for this man,
With a heart so pure.
My ride or die friend
Stepped right in the front door!
When it comes to our bond,
Jason’s “gangst” to the core!
And he walked into my life
more than ready for war.

So we’re taking on the devil
As we build and we grow,
Stomping out all the demons,
While allowing God to show
The both of us exactly
Where this friendship’s meant to go.
See I’m a soldier for the Lord,
And he’s my G.I. Joe!
Living proof that half the battle’s
Won in all we’ve come to know.

He’s breaking down my walls
As I learn he’s a safe place.
And I’m letting down my guard
Allowing him to fill a space.

A space I had shut down,
In fear of repeating my past.
But so far knowing him,
Is a mother-loving blast!

This man who knows the Lord,
Prepared for battle with his sword,
Trusting God to do the rest,
As is written in His Word.
And as we fight this battle,
We build and brawl in one accord.

Our God’s our common crutch,
Our friendship’s far from black and white,
And as we grow in both,
We’re left with nothing but delight.
Speaking on the phone,
Wishing he could see my smile,
With words that leave me giddy,
As if I’m still a child.

Encouragement when needed,
A hug when I’m alone…
And when I feel uncertain,
He’s supportive in his tone.
He knows what I need to hear,
He knows exactly what to say.
And when I need it most,
I can count on him to pray.
Y’all call him Con or Quest,
But for me, he’s just my J.

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke
© 2000-2009 GS Poetry. All rights reserved

For those who don’t know my friend Jason, someday you will know him as “Conquest.” He’s a PHENOMENAL talent and a GREAT man of God. Not only this, but he’s an AMAZING friend. So I decided to let him, and all of my readers know, how special he is. God only knows what’s meant to become of him, of me, and of our friendship. But so far I’m having the best time finding out. And I’m having a blast observing how the Lord is using him. For those who haven’t heard him, he’s a freestyle BEAST and a lyrical genius. The devil’s definitely in for a surprise, and so are all of you!

Now that I’ve put this out there, I’ll get back to the topic at hand. And it’s that life’s too short to let fear hold us back. Whether it’s professionally, spiritually, or emotionally. All of these deaths just confirm it for me. If it doesn’t confirm it for you, there’s a problem! We have celebrities passing, unacknowledged in life AND in death, which is sad. We have loved ones passing, family members fighting in foreign countries… all not knowing how much we love them. And some may never know. So let’s tell and show them… let’s tell and show one another, while we know we still can. Our society is filled with so much criticism and judgment, accusation and negativity, until it’s too late. But for those who are still alive, we still have time. Let’s take advantage of that and let down our guard in love. That’s my word for this week. I hope it has been an inspiration or encouragement to you all. Know I think you’re all truly special & love each of you dearly. God bless & much success…

KLC

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke

More Than Just

MJ stands for more than just
a man with a million songs.
We mourn a man who’s one of
many legends come and gone.
This man has paved the way,
and his life has left a mark.
Celebs will even testify
that for them, he lit a spark.

We “remember the time”
he first impressed upon our hearts
memories that made “history”
as we watched “someone in the dark.”
We watched him grow,
we watched him move,
a true genius in his art.
We listened to his many tales,
a “thriller” from the start.

This “wiz” and creative king of pop,
whose craft transcends through time.
Traveling through remixes
and samples in our rhymes.
He’s shown us all what it means to fight,
with a “West Side Story” style.
He wasn’t only “Bad!”
but originality undefiled.

His moonwalks clean,
his swagger mean,
a style so all is own.
And now he’s gone…
But there’s no so long,
cuz He lives through
the seeds he’s sewn.

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke
© 2000-2009 GS Poetry. All rights reserved.

Of course this was written in loving memory of the late Michael Jackson. But I want to say RIP to MJ, Farrah Fawcett, Ed McMahon, and all who’ve left a mark. My heart & condolences go out to their loved ones. Let’s keep them in our prayers as we remember them in our hearts. Also, please let this be a reminder that no one is promised tomorrow. Let us live life to the fullest by sharing our gifts and leaving our own mark by sewing seeds for our SAVIOR… and also by showing love every chance we get. We owe God that much for each day we’re given, and we need that much from one another. Love you ALL, hope you enjoyed this & God bless….

KLC

When It Rains, It Surely Pours!

Hey ladies! Hope you’ve all been doing great and diggin’ the blog so far. To all who’ve come through and shown love, know that it really means a lot! For those who could relate to my universal messages, I’m sure you can attest that God is GOOD!!! And for those who were feelin’ my gender specific messages, I’m sure you’ll agree that, well… GOD IS GOOD!!! With that said, I hope you feel this post just the same. And in case you haven’t guessed what the topic is… I’m taking it back to the men!

I’m sure we all notice that when someone has captured our heart or even just piqued our interest, all of a sudden all these other cats come from out of nowhere. Whether they be old flames, coworkers, church brethren…. or even total strangers, we have all these dudes tryna holla from God knows where! We’re thinking to ourselves, “God, WHY is the timing always soooo WRONG?” A friend of mine even calls this the “Woodworks Syndrome.” And I have to admit there couldn’t be a more accurate title for the situation.

Now getting back to the question of why when it rains, it surely pours as far as prospective love interests are concerned. Comedian Chris Rock once made a joke about it from a male perspective. Although he was joking, he made a very valid point. He assessed that once someone has scooped you up, cleaned you up, and made you shine… that’s when all eyes are on you and people realize what was there the whole time. So I’m gonna follow his lead from a spiritual standpoint.

We often question the reason for the “Woodworks Syndrome,” or come up with our own theories. But as women of God, there is only one reason that makes total sense. Once the LORD has scooped us up, transformed us from being spiritual Mary Magdelines to “Pretty Women” of God, all of a sudden, we SHINE! We shine so much that the enemy is intimidated, and men are drawn to our light. I’m at a point in my life where I see it happen repeatedly. Every time I go through the fire and come out more polished, someone’s checking for a sista. And I know it doesn’t just happen to me. But you know what ladies? That just means we’re doing something right, and God is doing something GREAT! So remember to seek him even more than before when it starts “Raining Men,” as the Weather Girls would say. Remember to seek the Lord regarding which encounter is meant to be a blessing or a diversion. So often, when we’re “booed up,” whether officially or not, we change our routine. We work out less, hang out with the girls less, because our “me time” is spent jonezin’. Yeah I said it! But am I wrong? And just as important as it is for us to maintain or focus concerning our routine, it’s important to remain spiritually focused. Oftentimes, an overflow of prospects is an attempt by the enemy to throw us off track. However, we also know that we were created to be companions. And with that said, there has to be at least one encounter that was arranged or orchestrated by the Almighty.

Proverbs 31 verses 10 through 12 reads as follows:

10 Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies.

11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.

12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.

When I read this scripture, it speaks to me on so many levels. First of all, it reminds me that in order for us to maintain our worth, we are instructed to maintain our virtue as well. It also tells us that we are of great value! Now you may be asking yourself, “Where is she going with this?” But don’t worry, because I’m about to tell you. I’m saying that our value is GREAT! Our Father says himself that our price is far above rubies. In other words, any dude who tries to holla needs to come correct in the spirit! Of course we’re attracted in the flesh to those who are physically attractive, well groomed, or who appear to have their act together according to earthly standards. But the one who comes correct will call us with his HEART. Our Father says that as wives, we are kept by the HEART of our husbands [Proverbs 31:11]. This tells me that although physical attraction and even “swag” may catch the eye, it’s the heart that counts in the end. And in turn, our heart as women of God, will be what keeps our companions as we do them good all the days of our lives [Proverbs 31:12]

The scripture tells us that “Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised. Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.” [Proverbs 31:30-31]. Now let me flip the first part and take it to you from another perspective. When it is said that favour is deceitful, what that means is that game or charm will fool you. And when it is stated that “beauty is vain,” what that means to me, is that looks only go so far. But a woman of GOD is on another level! And just the same, as women of God, we are to seek men of God who can step to our level in their faith. Am I talking to somebody out there? Whether I am or not, praise God, because He’s definitely talking to me as I type. I’m about to have a soulgasm up in here! Yeah that was a made up word, and it may sound taboo… but are we not supposed to be taken to higher heights and deeper depths in the spirit? And just as God is able to take us there, the man of God intended for us should be able to take us there as well in his companionship, and vise versa.

So… for those still asking themselves, “WHERE is she going with this?” Let me break it down for you. When the “Woodworks Syndrome” presents itself, or when it starts raining and pouring metaphorically speaking, start pouring out your prayers and seeking the Lord for direction. Even if you’ve been half-stepping before, come correct so that you can see whose intentions are correct and whose heart is where yours is; whose works praise him in the gates as yours do. And also so that your timing and steps are ordered by the Almighty. Our Father tells us that “The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.” [Proverbs 27:23]. And the steps of a good woman ought to be ordered just the same. I pray that this message is a blessing to all who read it and I thank you all for taking the time to check it out. I love you all dearly as your sister in Christ and I pray you continue to maintain your spiritual focus while trusting God to take care of the rest. Rest assured that the man who finds you in the end is finding a good thing in you [Proverbs 18:22] as you are in him. So long as you maintain your faith, all things will work out for good and lead you to an expected end [Romans 8:28; Jeremiah 29:11]. Good night and God bless, your sis in Christ for life…

KLC

Copyright ©2009 Keisha L. Clarke